And this is what my paper writing has come to...

I have almost 5 pages of my 20 page paper done, one and a half days left to do it (factor in sleep, class, and work there as well), and yet all I can do is procrastinate. I'm feeling oddly introspective right now. Maybe it has something to do with having missed two consecutive weeks of D-group... Or maybe it has to do with the fact that I just watched Inception instead of going to the library and now I'm questioning reality...
Either way, I feel like I haven't had the time to slow down and realize where my life has been headed these last three months. Or 6 months, if you count how long it's been since I posted in this blog. This semester has flown by. I feel like it's all I've been able to do to hold on for the ride--hardly any time to stop and savor the view. I felt like I learned so much about myself this summer, through the reading I did, the time I spent with God, Walkabout, ResLife training, beginning a D-group... But in the middle of all this craziness, it's hard enough to hold onto some semblance of normalcy, some attempt to keep up with all the homework I have to do and sleep I need and new relationships that are forming, and I haven't been able to process anything. And I'm afraid that in that lack of processing time I'm losing my ability to see what I'm supposed to be pursuing and somehow getting caught up in the day to day, losing the forest for the trees. But I can't slow down enough at the moment to try and gain a little more perspective. It's a hard balance to find, but at the moment I feel like I'm much too lost in the trees to gain any clear picture of the forest. And maybe it will just take time, but it's hard to function when you feel like you're losing the clear heading you had been navigating by. And I know that that's an ok place to be--that sometimes that's the way it works, but I don't want to lost sight of everything I learned. I can't lose sight of it. So the question is... How to proceed?